☆ log ʚ♡ɞ

This is the log page! Here, you can find a chronicle of updates, thoughts, and little notes about my journey.

• 🝌 3.16.25
  "i’m rotting from the inside out but i’ll never let anyone taste the bitterness of my pain."

• 🝌 3.14.25
  I am angry all the time. People have a way of pissing me off. especially my mother. She knows how to crawl through my veins and inject her spit.

• 🝌 3.12.25
  I have so many drafts, at least 50 of them, that it's like a whole archive. while I don't plan on finishing any of them, I'm just going to let them sit there and evolve over time.

• 🝌 3.11.25
  when the clock stopped, life began

• 🝌 3.09.25
  Spring always feels like an invitation. I love it I trust in the earth to guide me, I’ll finally let myself be as free as the flowers through the ground. The season is here, and with it, the chance to finally bloom.

• 🝌 2.26.25
  God, It (would) Feels Good: To sit in the library and just surrounded by lives I’ll never live but somehow still feel. To be a lovergirl and actually be loved back. To say “no” more. To say “fuck off” when I need to. To buy myself flowers, just because. To send postcards, even if no one expects them. To get a handwritten letter in the mail and know someone was thinking of me. To be real. To be me. To finally breathe and mean it.

• 🝌 2.24.25
  "I'm as jumpy as a virgin in a prison rodeo." — Blanche Devereaux Decorate your journal with tiny-store

• 🝌 2.19.25
  Job apps truly feel like a humiliation ritual

• 🝌 2.18.25
  I need a cat!!

• 🝌 2.18.25
  Desperation feels like me. All I’ve ever wanted was a baby, something tiny and helpless. Ugly, but full of love. My baby will have a red face, and I’ll cry when she cries. She won’t get to live her own life. But now? Not so much

• 🝌 2.17.25
  The smell of my mom’s dinner (a favorite always) carries love …. i can tell it’s been made with care I also wrote a letter to my sister today. It felt good to put my thoughts into words and share a little piece of everything with her, even from a distance. Some things are just meant for her eyes only, but I hope it brings a smile to her face when she reads it

• 🝌 2.16.25
  the unemployed urge to be: watching a movie or two every day writing research and personal essays, 2 novels, and a book of short stories go to the library for hours *medifuckingtate????*

• 🝌 2.15.25
  I imagine I'd be the kind of girl who spends Saturdays cleaning her room while listening to music on an old stereo, who knows how to bake from scratch and can’t wait to show them off to her significant other. I’d have a small circle maybe a few friends, and I’d think that’s enough. The high school crush would probably stay a distant thought, a feeling that’s there and probably goes away. I wouldn’t feel the weight of comparison, or think that there’s something wrong with me because I’m not “liked” the same way other girls are.

• 🝌 2.15.25
  nostalgia is proof you are living a life worth living. what a privilege to yearn for your own memories.

• 🝌 2.14.25
  Watchlist: ✓ The Handmaiden (2016) ✓ Betty Blue (1986) ✓ 13 going to 30 (2004) A Woman is a Woman (1961) ✓ Hereditary (2018) Princess Mononoke (1997) Daisies (1966) ✓ Gilmore Girls (2000) Chungking Express (1994) ✓ Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989) A Clockwork Orange (1971) ✓ Breakfast at Tiffany's (1961) ✓ Valerie and her Week of Wonders (1970) Audition (1999)

• 🝌 2.13.25
  it’s 1:26 am, just a day before valentine’s day, and i can’t with this deep desire to love and be loved. remembering that just a few years ago, i was eagerly planning to bake a heart-shaped strawberry cake for my little “entanglement”. it’s bittersweet to remember on those moments and the joy warmth they brought. i can’t help but still think of you, it's silly of me, i know - that’s my 2nd entry for today, I will stop now

• 🝌 2.13.25
  I was literally screaming after watching the final episode of High Potentials! It ended on such a cliffhanger, I cant even. So, Morgan and her team were investigating this huge case, and they finally solved it, getting ready to reveal the kidnapper... and then the episode just ended! What?! I need season 2 like, right now! -@12:11am

• 🝌 2.12.25
  Found this amazing site today readymag.com. It’s got super cute web design, and the best part is you don’t need any coding. I’m watching their YouTube tutorials to learn more, and it seems like it’s going to be really fun.

• 🝌 2.11.25
  page ideas.... terminology? what do things mean? I just want to lay it all out... I want to write it down. I want it to be semi coherent, maybe chronicles of potential communications...

• 🝌 2.10.25
  I’ve made a lot of progress on the writings I mentioned before. I really want to keep it honest, and I think the best way to get better at it is by sharing it little by little. I’ve been writing a ton every day (not really) but it's going to take some time.

• 🝌 2.9.25
  An Argentinian artist known for creating unique animations using unconventional techniques. Mariano ramis

• 🝌 2.8.25
  Today is Saturday, which means I have church tomorrow and I seriously have nothing to wear but who cares !Now I’m starving! Lately, I’ve been completely obsessed with EverSkies. I’ve made tons of designs and have over 30K credits. It’s so cute and engaging, I seriously can’t get enough of it!

• 🝌 2.8.25
  Writing is the only thing I feel like I really know how to do. Everything else just feels like a struggle, and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm not good at anything else. It's frustrating to feel like I’m falling short in other areas.

• 🝌 2.6.25
  I've been writing a lot over the past few months, and to keep it all in one place, I've decided to put some of my short pieces here. I might organize them into their own category, though I'm still figuring out what to call it.